It's been four days since I turned 19 and I realized a couple things.

1. I still don't have a job
2. I still don't have a license
3. Life ain't gunna wait on me
4. I have to swallow my pride and let it go
5. I have to make my choices now.
6. I'm not gonna survive if I stay a little kid.
7. Papa was right. Always has been.
8. Second chances are becoming a commodity.
9. My future is whatever I want it to be.
10. Never take hope for granted.

This is it. This is the year I'm defining myself and perhaps I'll live in a future where I'll be proud of myself. It's time that I take the initiative. No more screw ups, no more bullshitting. I guess I simply forgot what future I'm fighting for, but I can't afford to make anymore mistakes

Shoutouts:

1.
I'm sorry it's been a weird couple days, but I know everything WILL get better. It's been pretty hard for you this past week and I should be even more supportive.

2.
We haven't been talking much, but I know it'll do me some good. Always nice to get advice from an old friend!

3.
You're probably not gunna get this until around March, but I just want you to know you're in my prayers dude. Hope everything's going alright in your training!