Ok, so I guess Senior year isn't going as smoothly as I hoped for before the summer ended.

And...I don't know what the hell I'm doing most of the time. I don't even know what I feel most of the time too. Confused? I guess. Everything has simply fell under a routine. I wasn't even this drained this time last year. And by the way things are...nothing hasn't really changed, atleast for me.

I know I shouldn't be complaining, but I'm simply lost. Above that, I damn feel selfish just typing this up. A lot of people I know are going through a lot of things now. And you know what? I spend time at night sulking, remembering such good memories over the summer and the times afterwards. But it's not too soon when the sulking turns into tears.

What the hell happened? There are times I wished this summer didn't happen. Everything didn't seem so hurtful pre-May; back in the spring. I think I just need some time to spend with three of the closest people I know. A moment's reprieve for all of us. I pray so much for that to happen.

I just need time with them to clear my head and maybe this year wouldn't be as bad. Maybe I can help them too?

Who knows.